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mrs03b
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Name: mrs
Birthday: 7/20/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: growing old with my husband, taking care of my children(making things up as i go and learning that being a mother is lots more than just taking care of your kids), taking coffee breaks when much needed, and dreaming
Expertise: staying focused when plans go different from, well... planned.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
8/18/2005
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| Having a child diagnosed with cancer is rather a hard thing to get your mind around. And now that Jacob is coming to the end of his chemo treatment plan from the Wilms' Tumor stage 1 found in his left kidney back in December that was successfully removed and has him left with 1 functioning kidney that is working well, I feel myself NOW thinking about everything. It's rather odd, to say the least. I am fortunate enough to be a parent with a child that had the tumor found at a not so progressive state, thanks to the warnings Jacob's body was telling us; and also fortunate enough for it to be a cancer that is well known in the oncology world as a completely treatable and ultimately curable thing. Yet with my fortunate circumstances come anger and bitterness that this ever happened. I suppose all this could be taken as a point that we are not in a perfect world (that is to come, and how i am not sure of that but i have theories that are not explainable outside of my head) Or it could just simply be another bad circumstance that will end up good somehow, thanks to grace. I wish I could say that it has strengthened my Faith, but I don't feel that it has. I can tell you that 'The Situation' has lead me to understand HMO insurance coverage a little better, and also has lead me to become a little more knowledgeable about cancer and chemotherapy overall. I do feel more comfortable talking with other parents in difficult situations. And I would love to incorporate my 'learning' from this situation into some type of work, but I don't know what that would be. I guess the best thing to do is try my best to focus on the most that I've gained from all of this and try to get a road built from that. I'm glad to have encouraging friends and I'm sure that something can be figured out for me to do with all these 'learnings' from 'The Situation'. So, that keeps me trying to wake up at a decent time in the morning and look for what I can DO each day. And I like that. | | |
| haven't gotten on here in a bit. and it seems that anytime i have been on here i have just written a bunch of mess. i thank all of you for putting up with my venting and bablle of silly things i shouldn't get so stuck up on!
so, now,...
-i am starting a new work path to be involved with a company that i'm glad to be working for (My previous work place was a good organization to be working for, but just wasn't right for ME.)
-i am feeling better about myself, which for a few months there i was getting really down
-i am being more of a mother and less of a boss to my children; and i am enjoying married life instead of begging to regret it and want to 'start over'
-i am becoming a better sister, and a happy daughter
-i am learning, and learning, and learning more and more and more about myself and others and God everyday
and i'm very glad to be writing to all of you, and very glad to be ME!,... and if i can get my camera fixed i can try to get pictures of the kiddos up on here. they're FUN! | | |
| just went through my old posts and -deleted- a few of them. felt good!!!! sometimes i wish i thought a little bit better about the effects of words. i am quick to respond and a lot of times i say/write a lot of stupid things that don't even need to be said/written. i am getting better at not reacting soooo quick to things, but i still have a lot more work to do on this issue. i'm excited about what lent will bring for me this year. i always enjoy the new understanding of my lord and savior that i come to during lent. AND i miss Trinity!! | | |
| well, technically Jacob is over 13mo. old now since he's a January 15th baby. But here are a couple pics from his actual birthDATE:
and here's one of my favorite pic.s from mr. 1yr. old's birthday party:
it was a quick year, with a lot packed into it!! overall i'd have to say it was a good one though. caleb is a wonderful big brother and him and jacob are pretty much inseparable. either one of them will fuss quite a bit if it's just the one of them home for the day, or whatever. they have a lot of fun together; not to mention can cause a lot of trouble too. yet even with the hard days, i have to say: i absolutely LOVE being a parent of 2 that are 18mo. apart from one another and i wouldn't have it any other way. so i'm glad that adam & i decided after we had been married 1yr. to just let kids happen and we didn't put extra planning into figuring out when would be best for us to have our first, second,... --i don't think i would have PLANNED to have 2 kids so close in age if we had PLANNED everything out, and man i would have been missing out on soooooo much if everything had been up to me.-- | | |
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so i would love to post up some pics of the kiddos, but i just don't have the energy to do so. hopefully one of these saturdays i can put on some of the latest ones at least. i kept meaning to get all the pictures we have on the computer organized and then make up some albums on facebook and all that,... but that didn't happen and our computer is packed away. we have been fortunate enough to have gotten a lab top to use from some friends, and there's still a bit of uncertainty how long we are borrowing it for. anyway, that's enough about posting about what i'm not going to be posting. SOON, i will try my best to get some pictures on here to share.
life in general is alright. we're living at my parents in westmont and i think we all get along pretty good. most of our stuff is packed away in a moving truck ready for when we find a place to move into that is in rogers park, or close by. we had planned to be moved to rogers park in september, and that didn't happen. i'm not much up for searching for a place though, i'm leaving that work for adam to do! two significant days that i had started to plan out for just didn't work out how i wanted them to. my birthday i was getting very excited to have a nice celebration at home and share about my new job i had just started and all that stuff, but intstead it ended up being a day to go visit adam, and a day i would start regretting the decision i had made to take a job in rogers park when there was no certainty of when we would be moving there. on our anniversary i was hoping to go out with adam to a cute little restaurant in galesburg and have some crepes together while sharing some good conversation with jason and his lady; or at least find some time over the weekend for adam and i to get out and have some time in galesburg our whatever by ourselves; but instead we sat around in little york begining to wonder how long it would take for the vans shocks to get fixed and trying our best to not get contaminated with the same 'whatever' everyone else in the house got. so i'm not up for beginning to plan out where adam and i can move into with the boys when it's working out allright for us to have a decent amount of space at my folks for the time being. all i know for sure is that i am getting very tired of commuting!!! i did not start working in rogers park so i would have to drive so far and keep a crazy morning schedule, BUT i want to continue working for christopher house so i try my best to put up with it and try to convince myself that it's no big deal and that my decision to start working in rogers park was a great decision and everything will work out soon. and seriously i did a lot more driving before i got married and all and i never had a problem with it. everything WILL work out soon,.... right???????
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